“Snow”. I can definitively remember saying that word aloud. I’ll never forget gazing beyond the lines of the tree tops; towards the sky and seeing an army of miniature crystalline flakes. Miniature sculptures, works of art hand crafted by God Himself. So divine, so much attention to detail…I think He did the same with you. It was 27 degrees. I remember, because I wanted it to be 6 degrees warmer . Partially because I forgot my coat at home, but mainly because it was December 7th 2017. I wanted it to be warmer, because I didn’t want it to snow the first day of us being together. I had every intention on becoming your companion that day. I love snow, but I felt that snow could decrease the mood (it can be pretty gloomy) and I needed every little ounce ounce of luck on my side to ensure that I’d be able to make you mine. It worked too. You belong to me >:).
Now of course, I know you’re not a possession. You’re a gift. You’re more than a gift, if I’m going to be candid. You’re a blessing and lifesaver. You’re a blessing to me, because I feel almost as if you saved me. A debt I will never be able to repay. I think it’s the only debt in history that’s worth having, because I get to be with you forever. I know young love is often laughed upon and rightfully so. Most people in our age group doesn’t know who they are. 16-18 years of life isn’t enough to say you know who you are. Especially when you haven’t been independent on your own. Naive is what it is right?But all of those things considered fully… I say you don’t know how full my heart is. I don’t think about anything else, but you all day. I’ve dreamt about you every single night since I met you. All of my best days of living on this world happened since I met you. I’m not afraid to say I love you irrevocably and unforgivingly, because it is true. I do love you, with every fiber and every blood cell in my body. I love your imperfections. I love your voice. I love your smile. I love your laugh. Most importantly…I love ALL of the things you hate about yourself, because I all around love YOU. I try to give you my all wether it’s financially, emotionally, or physically. It’s not an easy task. It’s the one I’m up for though. Because we fight everyday for each other. We make mistakes too. We’re only human and I forgive you for your mistakes always, and that’s not a trait that’s necessarily a positive, but I’m always looking to turn any negative situation into a teaching moment. For not only you, but for me as well.
Going into this relationship, I knew that I wanted everything I listed above. I’m thankful for that bone chilling Thursday early last December. I wouldn’t be here without you. It takes two to tango, and I mean that in the sense that I needed your help to get here…. (not the other meaning of that phrase). I appreciate you and everything you’ve meant and every will mean to me. For caring. For be relentlessly courteous. I adore those traits. I’m infatuated by you in numerous ways. I only hope I make you feel half as good as you make me feel. I titled this blog Venus in honor of you. She’s the Roman goddess of love, desire, beauty, and prosperity. You exemplify those characteristics so effortlessly. You work hard. You love hard. You just do everything at 11. I admire that. It’s one of the reasons I admire you…. and have for a year. Happy One Year Anniversary.
I love you Nahla. You’re my bestfriend. The bestest anyone could ask for at that.
No measure of time w/ you will EVER be long enough, but let’s start with FOREVER. ~ Edward Cullen ( i know it’s cheesy)
…. (but it’s true)
Here’s to more years of compromising and polar opposite dualities, as well as happiness and affirmation.
~ A.
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